Naturalistic Paganism

Winter Cross-Quarter

Today is the Winter Cross-Quarter.  It is the midpoint between the Winter Solstice and the Spring equinox.  It is one of eight stations in our planet’s annual journey around the sun.  For those in the Northern Hemisphere, the claws of winter are harsh at this time, even though sunlight has already started returning.  It takes a while for the climate to warm in response to the longer day, so the earth remains cold.  While the Winter Solstice is the time of longest darkness, the Winter Cross-Quarter is (on average) the time of greatest cold.  Yet, like a secret promise, the sun is returning.  Jon Cleland Host of the Naturalistic Paganism yahoo group refers to the day as the Winter “Thermistice”, the peak of cold in the winter season.

In the Northern Hemisphere, February 2 is traditionally celebrated in the Neo-Pagan Wheel of the Year as Imbolc.  Other names include Oimelc, Brigit, Brigid’s Day, Bride’s Day, Brigantia, Gŵyl y Canhwyllau, and Candlemas.  Those in the Southern Hemisphere celebrate Lammas instead at this time.  Imbolc derives from Celtic traditions surrounding the goddess Brigid, whose sacred fire at Kildare was tended by virgin priestesses.  Traditionally, it marks the season when ewes birth and give milk.  It is a time of emergence, as the herd brings new life into the world, and we look forward to the coming spring.  One custom to observe this is placing a well-protected candle in each window of the house, to shine the light of life out into the snowy cold (Nichols, 2009).

Glenys Livingstone of PaGaian Cosmology, a naturalistic tradition revering the Goddess as a metaphor for the Cosmos, recommends meditating upon emerging Creativity through the ever-new flame of the candle, the beginning of the in-breath, and the word om.  It is a time for individuation, a time to renew dedication of one’s small self to the big Self.

“A dedication to Brigid means a dedication to the Being and Beauty of particular small self, and knowing deeply its Source – as an infant knows deeply its dependence on the Mother, as the new shoot on the tree knows intimately its dependence on the branch and the whole tree, as the new star’s being is connected to the supernova.  It is a dedication to the being of your particular beautiful Self, rooted seamlessly in the whole of Gaia.”  (Livingstone, 2008)

NaturalPantheist shares the words he uses during his Imbolc celebration:

“As I stand here on this celebration of Imbolc, the sacred wheel of the year continues to turn and spring begins again. As my forebears did, I do now, and so may my descendants do in time to come. It is the feast of the goddess Brigid, guardian of the hearth fire and protector of the home. Patron of poetry, healing and smithcraft. It is a time of awakening after the dark, cold slumber of winter. The sun has grown stronger and the days have grown longer and I see now the first signs of spring. Trees are beginning to bud, snowdrops are blossoming and animals are stirring from hibernation. The time of Oimelc has arrived – the ewe’s are pregnant, lambs are being born and milk is beginning to flow once more. Winter is over and I rejoice in the hope of the coming warmth.

“I light this candle now in thanksgiving to Brigid, the sacred hearth fires of my home. I celebrate the growing power of the sun and look forward in hope to the coming warmth of summer.”

Jon Cleland Host of the Naturalistic Paganism yahoo group suggests making snow candles – an activity especially fun for kids (see files section of group).

Secular Buddhism: An interview with Stephen Batchelor

Stephen Batchelor at Upaya Zen Center in New Mexico, by Ottmar Liebert

Secular means “of the times.”  It is a spirituality for our era.

Today, we begin our late winter theme “Order and Structure”, with an interview with Stephen Batchelor, author of Buddhism Without Beliefs and Confession of a Buddhist Atheist.  Stephen talks with B.T. Newberg via Skype about the intersections between Secular Buddhism and Naturalistic Paganism.

Click above to listen.

What is Secular Buddhism?  What does it mean to be Buddhist in this fashion?  What can Naturalistic Pagans and Secular Buddhists learn from each other?

These are just a few of the questions engaged by controversial author Stephen Batchelor, praised by some and condemned by others.

With characteristic calm and even-handedness, Batchelor responds to probing questions about his thoughts, practice, and projects as he attempts to articulate a naturalistic form of Buddhism appropriate to our era.

Finally, at the end of the interview, Batchelor explains what he means by the powerful and potentially inflammatory remark in the opening chapter of his Confession of a Buddhist Atheist:

“Never before had I encountered a truth I was willing to lie for.”

Discover all this and more in this engaging audio interview.  Click above to listen.

The interviewee

Stephen Batchelor

Stephen Batchelor is a contemporary Buddhist teacher and writer, best known for his secular or agnostic approach to Buddhism. Stephen considers Buddhism to be a constantly evolving culture of awakening rather than a religious system based on immutable dogmas and beliefs. In particular, he regards the doctrines of karma and rebirth to be features of ancient Indian civilisation and not intrinsic to what the Buddha taught. Buddhism has survived for the past 2,500 years because of its capacity to reinvent itself in accord with the needs of the different Asian societies with which it has creatively interacted throughout its history. As Buddhism encounters modernity, it enters a vital new phase of its development. Through his writings, translations and teaching, Stephen engages in a critical exploration of Buddhism’s role in the modern world, which has earned him both condemnation as a heretic and praise as a reformer.

His work, including audio, video, and publications, can be found at www.stephenbatchelor.org.

Bio text and bio photo courtesy of www.stephenbatchelor.org.

This Wednesday

This Wednesday, we continue with the intersection of Naturalistic Paganism and Eastern Religions with “Shinto Intertwined” by Ken Apple.

What to look forward to in February at HP

Snowdrops in the snow, courtesy Wikipedia

We are dividing the year here at HP into 8 semi-seasonal themes, following the Neo-Pagan Wheel of the Year.  The themes for 2014 are inspired in part by the Earth Story Calendar created by Peter Adair.  For early winter, our theme was “Beginnings”, which corresponded with the Big Bang and the birth of the universe.  This month we begin our new semi-seasonal theme for late winter, “Order and Structure”, which corresponds with the emergence of galaxies.  Questions we will be exploring include: How do we structure our world as Naturalistic Pagans? How do we make a cosmos out of chaos with our beliefs and the stories we tell? How do our naturalistic beliefs merge with our other beliefs? Is Naturalistic Paganism compatible with other belief systems?  Send your submissions to humanisticpaganism [at] gmail.com.

New Column: De Natura Deorum

The 1st century BCE Roman philosopher, Cicero, wrote:

“There is in fact no subject upon which so much difference of opinion exists, not only among the unlearned but also among educated men; and the views entertained are so various and so discrepant, that, while it is no doubt a possible alternative that none of them is true, it is certainly impossible that more than one should be so.”

One might think that Naturalistic Pagans would have little use for gods, and that is certainly true in many cases.  However, we receive a surprising number of submissions on the nature of the gods here at HP, with some truly radical conceptions of what “gods” are.  In lieu of dedicating an entire month to the topic, I am introducing a new semi-seasonal column, De Natura Deorum (On the Nature of the Gods), named after Cicero’s essay by the same name.  The column will feature a different contributor each time.  Send your submissions to humanisticpaganism [at] gmail.com.

This Month at HP

Each week we will have a different mini-theme:

Week 1: Naturalistic Paganism and Eastern Religions

Feb 2  “Secular Buddhism”: An interview with Stephen Batchelor

Feb 5  “Shinto Intertwined” by Ken Apple

Week 2: Naturalistic Paganism and Philosophy

Feb 9  “Axiarchism and Paganism, Part 1” by Eric Steinhart

Feb 10  “Axiarchism and Paganism, Part 2” by Eric Steinhart

Feb 12  “The Gadfly: A Socratic Interrogation of Naturalism” by B.T. Newberg

Feb 14  A Review of Brendan Myer’s The Earth, The Gods and The Soul – A History of Pagan Philosophy: From the Iron Age to the 21st Century

Week 3: Naturalistic Paganism and Wicca

Feb 16  “My Heretical Wiccan Beliefs” by Merlyn

Feb 19  DE NATURA DEORUM: “Lord and Lady for the Non-Theist” by Rhys Chisnall

Week 4: Naturalistic Paganism and Atheism

Feb 23  “What atheists believe too” by Trent Fowler

Feb 26  “The Pagan Atheist” by Nick Ace Westward

Humanistic Paganism Calendar for February

Feb 2 Neo-Pagan winter cross-quarter day (Imbolc)

Feb 2  Groundhog’s Day

Feb 3  Winter thermistice/cross-quarter

Feb 12  Darwin Day

Feb 17  Giordano Bruno burned at the stake

Feb 20  World Day of Social Justice

Feb 24  Black Nonbelievers Solidarity Day

A Pedagogy of Gaia: by Bart Everson: “Always Beginning Again”

Today we conclude our our early winter theme, Beginnings, and looking forward to Imbolc/Candlemas with an essay by columnist, Bart Everson: “Always Beginning Again”.

My daughter reminded me of something important, something profound, something I once knew but had forgotten, something I can’t put into words but that nevertheless changed my life. She accomplished this feat not by saying or doing anything in particular, but by coming into the world, by being born, and by simply being.

As a new parent I found myself looking at the world through her eyes, and everything was new. The familiar seemed strange. A sense of wonder and awe pervaded. The world was full of mystery, and that mystery was full of value, and that value contained mystery within it, unending. And this experience did not feel like a purely subjective feeling. It had the character of deep truth.

Yet of course this way of looking at the world, this seeing with new eyes, was in fact nothing new. It was something very old. It did not feel, to me, like a new truth revealed. It felt like an old truth rediscovered. I had known this before. I had been here before. I had seen the world this way, once upon a time. And now here I was again.

I wondered to myself: Now that I’m back, can I find some way to stay here? How did this happen? How did I forget? It seemed like it shouldn’t be possible, to forget something so important, so crucial, so intrinsic to the nature of being alive and being human.

We are constantly forgetting. We must forget in order to function. We simply can’t hold all our experience in working memory. We’re constantly shuffling experiences off to other parts of our mind for long-term storage, and if we don’t call them back, they get harder to access and may even become lost.

We are constantly forgetting trivial experiences. What did lunch taste like last Tuesday? Strangely enough, we can also forget important experiences. We can, in fact, forget the most important experiences of all. We can and do lose touch with the most profound truths of existence.

I want a reminder. I want to be nudged, shoved if need be, back to the truth. This is the trick of living, or one of the tricks anyhow. It’s easy to pay lip service to love and wonder, but I want to know it, to live it, to feel it in my bones.

It’s great to get such reminders randomly, out of the blue, by surprise, such as happened when I became a father. I was ambushed by reality, so to speak. There’s really no substitute for these spontaneous experiences. They are a blessing, a gift, and if I am open to the possibilities inherent in life they may happen more often.

I wished to take a more proactive approach, to cultivate openness, to embark intentionally on the journey. I wished to constantly remind myself us of basic mysteries which I tend to forget.

Meditation can serve this purpose. My daily practice is like hitting a reset button. (Well, you know, sometimes.) In sitting silently, I get back to basics. I recall who I am, what I love, how I want to live, and what I have to offer.

The cycle of seasonal celebrations also serves this purpose. The holidays enshrined in the Wheel of the Year bring us back, again and again, to certain themes. These themes are diverse and varied, but one constant that runs through them all is renewal. They are all about beginning, each in their own way; because the Wheel is a cycle, any point can be taken as a beginning. Through my observance of any given holiday, I renew and refresh my perspective on life.

In all things I seek to see again through new eyes, to encounter the world with a freshness of perspective, to hold on to that sense of awe and wonder I knew sometimes as a child, to remember that which I already know.

For discussion in the comments below: How do you remind yourself of those experiences which are most important to you? How do you reconnect with a sense of wonder at life?

The Author

Bart Everson

In addition to writing the A Pedagogy of Gaia column here at HumanisticPaganism, Bart Everson is a writer, a photographer, a baker of bread, a husband and a father. An award-winning videographer, he is co-creator of ROX, the first TV show on the internet. As a media artist and an advocate for faculty development in higher education, he is interested in current and emerging trends in social media, blogging, podcasting, et cetera, as well as contemplative pedagogy and integrative learning. He is a founding member of the Green Party of Louisiana, past president of Friends of Lafitte Corridor, sometime contributor to Rising Tide, and a participant in New Orleans Lamplight Circle.

See A Pedagogy of Gaia posts.

See Bart Everson’s other posts.

Next Month

Next Month we begin our late winter theme, “Order and Structure”.  How do we structure our world as Naturalistic Pagans? How do we make a cosmos out of chaos with our beliefs and the stories we tell? How do our naturalistic beliefs merge with our other beliefs? Is Naturalistic Paganism compatible with other belief systems?  Send your writing and art to humanisticpaganism [at] gmail.com.  

Stages of (My) Faith, a review by John Halstead

Today we continue our early winter theme, Beginnings, with a discussion of James Fowler’s Stages of Faith, by John Halstead.

Is human spiritual development like a road?  Do we progress from one stage to another, like leaving one town and moving to another?

Four Seasons fill the measure of the year;
There are four seasons in the mind of man …
— “The Human Seasons” by John Keats

Stages of Spiritual Maturity

When I was transitioning out of my religion of origin (Mormonism), Alan Watts’ book, Behold the Spirit, had a profound influence on the course of my subsequent spiritual development.  Watts is best known for being a popular translator of Eastern spirituality for Western audiences.  One of the quotes that stood out to me and which I copied into my little book of favorite quotations was this:

“In the stage of infancy, the church’s moral teaching is of necessity authoritarian and legalistic.  In adolescence, intensely earnest and self-consciously heroic, following after extremely lofty ideals.  In maturity, we return somewhat to earth, and find the source of morality neither in external authority, nor in remote ideals, but in the consciousness of God himself in the heart.”

As with many quotes that captured my attention at the time, I did not fully understand its meaning when I first read its, and I would only grow to understand it, sometimes years later, as I lived out that meaning in my own life.  In the quote above, Watts identifies three stages of faith* development.  These corresponded with the course of my own spiritual development.  At the time I read the quote, I was leaving the first stage.  My own literalistic understanding of religion had come into conflict with my intellectual explorations and my expanding sphere of personal experience.  “Self-conciously heroic” would be an apt description of my departure from the Mormon church as I moved into Watts’ second stage.  I saw myself as struggling against the powers of ignorance and fear, both personal and collective.  At the time, I had only a vague sense of an internal God-consciousness, which is a quality of Watts’ third stage, but I longed for it.  A couple of years later, Neo-Paganism helped me to “return somewhat to earth”, as Watts says, and develop that inner divinity, which I am still attempting to do.

One of my role models from contemporary Paganism has been Aidan Kelly, the founder of the New Reformed Order of the Golden Dawn, a West Coast Neo-Pagan tradition organized in 1967.  In his book, Crafting the Art of Magic, Kelly describes the same three stages in the development of an individual’s religious maturity identified by Alan Watts:

“The first is the stage of childhood, during which the myths of religion, learned from parents and others, are believed implicitly.  The second stage is the stage of adolescence, during which the critical intellect develops, and the objective facts of ordinary history are taken as the criteria by which to judge the plausibility or possibility of the myths, which are normally rejected as being simply false during this stage, which can last into the late twenties.  The third stage is the beginnings of true maturity, in which the person realizes that the facts of ordinary history, being value-free, provide no basis for making decisions about life problems.  At this stage the adult can begin to reappropriate the myths, recognizing that they are intended to be primarily statements of value, not statements of fact or history, and recognizing also that an interpretation of the myths which is much more sophisticated than that of a child must be possible; else these myths would hardly have survived for millenia as the basis for the value systems of world civilizations.  One mark of true maturity is therefor the ability to tolerate the ambiguous tension between myth and history.”

Kelly does a good job here of describing the third stage.  At the time, I understood my own embrace of Neo-Paganism as the kind of “reappropriation” of mythology which Kelly describes as part of the third stage.

James Fowler’s Stages of Faith

A few years later, my brother-in-law gave me a copy of James Fowler’s book, Stages of Faith, which turned out to be a godsend.  In Stages of Faith, Fowler describes this same process as Watts and Kelly above, but in much more detail, drawing on the theories of psychologists Piaget, Kohlberg, Erickson, and others.  Fowler describes 6 stages of spiritual development.  Fowler’s Stages 2/3, 4, and 5 correspond roughly to the three stages described by Watts and Kelly above: a mythologizing stage, a de-mythologizing stage, and a reconstructive stage.  It’s these stages that I will be discussing below.  (Fowler’s Stage 1 corresponds to early childhood, of which most of us have little memory, and Stage 6 essentially corresponds to what might be called “enlightenment”, which few of us will ever experience.)

Late Childhood Spirituality (Mythologizing Stage)

Fowler’s Stage 2, which he called “Mythic-Literal Faith” (and which I call the Mythologizing Stage), is the stage most common in school children.  It is characterized by one-dimensional and literalistic interpretations of the stories and beliefs of one’s community.  Experience is structured largely by means of linear narrative or story.  The actors in the cosmic story are anthropomorphic.  Individuals in this stage do not naturally step back to reflect on the meaning of the story.  The world is understood to operate on a principle of reciprocal fairness and justice.  Fowler warns that the literalness and excessive reliance on cosmic reciprocity at this stage can lead to “an overcontrolling, stilted perfectionism” (“works righteousness”) on the one hand or “an abasing sense of badness” on the other (or, as in my personal case, both).  A person begins to move out of this stage as they become aware of the contradictions in the stories they have inherited and begin to reflect on the meanings of those stories.

Adolescent Spirituality (Constructive Stage)

Fowler’s Stage 3, which he calls “Synthetic-Conventional Faith” (and I call the Constructive Stage), typically develops in adolescence.  In this stage, the individual seeks to construct a coherent worldview that will orient them in their increasingly complex environment.  While we tend to think of adolescents as independence-seeking, Fowler calls this a “conformist stage”.  Individuals in this stage are “acutely tuned to the expectations and judgments of significant others” and do not have a sure enough grasp on their own identity and autonomous judgment to construct and maintain an independent perspective.  Authority is located in traditional authority roles, if they are perceived as personally worthy, or in the “consensus of a valued, face-to-face group”.  According to Fowler, at this stage, beliefs and values may be deeply felt, but they are tacitly held.   The individual “dwells” in their beliefs, rather than reflecting on them objectively:

“There has not been occasion to step outside them to reflect on or examine them explicitly or systematically. [In this stage,] a person has an ‘ideology,’ a more or less consistent clustering of values and beliefs, but he or she has not objectified it for examination and in a sense is unaware of having it. Differences of outlook with others are experienced as differences in ‘kind’ of person.”

According to Fowler, one of the dangers of this stage is that “[t]he expectations and evaluations of others can be so compellingly internalized (and sacralized) that later autonomy of judgment and action can be jeopardized”.

Young Adult Spirituality (Demythologizing/Deconstructive Stage)

Numerous factors can lead to a transition to the next stage, including:

“serious clashes or contradictions between valued authority sources; marked changes, by officially sanctioned leaders, or policies or practices previously deemed sacred and unbreachable; the encounter with experiences or perspectives that lead to critical reflection on how one’s beliefs and values have formed and changed, and on how ‘relative’ they are to one’s particular group or background”;

or the experience of “leaving home” — emotionally, physically, or both — which precipitates the kind of self-examination that leads to a transition to the next stage.  All of these factors played a role in my own disillusionment with Mormonism: contradictions of authorities, changes in doctrines, exposure to a world not so easily encapsulated in the Mormon paradigm, insight into my own personal history and idiosyncrasies that led me to embrace Mormonism at a young age, and so on.

Fowler’s Stage 4, which he calls “Individuative-Reflective Faith”, may begin in young adulthood for many, but for some it only emerges in the mid-thirties or forties.  The individual begins to define him- or herself as distinct from group membership and social roles. The individual begins to take seriously their personal responsibility to examine their feelings and reflect critically on their beliefs.  Fowler calls this the “demythologizing” stage.  This is the stage, which many of my readers are undoubtedly familiar with, of deconstructing the dogma of one’s previously-held faith.  Individuals in this stage tend to have “an excessive confidence in the conscious mind and in critical thought”.  It also can breed a kind of narcissism.  This certainly applied to me when I left the Mormon church.  I believed that my rational mind would provide me with everything my spirit needed, and I was convinced I could do it alone.  The danger of this stage is that it will lead to nihilism, but even nihilism can be a precursor to transformation.

An individual begins to move out of this stage as he or she begins to acknowledge in the influence of unconscious factors influencing their judgment and behavior, what Fowler calls “images and energies from a deeper self”.  An individual may also develop “a gnawing sense of the sterility and flatness of the meanings one serves”.  Stories, symbols, myths and paradoxes from one’s own old tradition or from other traditions develop a new appeal.  One begins to recognize that life is more complex than the “logic of clear distinctions and abstract concepts can comprehend” and begins to move toward “a more dialectical and multileveled approach to life truth.”

Adult Spirituality (Remythologizing/Reconstructive Stage)

Fowler’s calls his Stage 5 “Conjunctive Faith”.  According to Fowler, this stage is rare before mid-life, but I have found elements of it in people much younger.  This stage involves the integration of spiritual elements that were either suppressed or unrecognized in the previous stage.  It brings together the power of symbolic truths of Stage 3 with the critical awareness of Stage 4.  This is a re-mythologizing stage; individuals in this stage can (re-)embrace symbols, myths and rituals — either those previously rejected or new ones — because they are no longer empty formalities; the individual has now experienced the “depth of reality” to which they refer.

This stage involves a “reclaiming and reworking of one’s past” and “an opening to the voices of one’s ‘deeper self.'”

“What the previous stage struggled to clarify, in terms of the boundaries of self and outlook, this stage now makes porous and permeable. Alive to paradox and the truth in apparent contradictions, this stage strives to unify opposites in mind and experience. It generates and maintains vulnerability to the strange truths of those who are ‘other.’ Ready for closeness to that which is different and threatening to self and outlook (including new depths of experience in spirituality and religious revelation) […]”

The strength of this stage comes from what Fowler calls “a capacity to see and be in one’s or one’s group’s most powerful meanings, while simultaneously recognizing that they are relative, partial and inevitably distorting apprehensions of transcendent reality.”

Limitations of Fowler’s Stages

There are some obvious limitations to understanding spiritual development in this linear way.  First, the stages can occur at nearly any point in a person’s life.  I have known adults who seem to be in Fowler’s Stage 3 and teenagers who seem to be Fowler’s Stage 4.  Second, not everyone seems to go through these stages.  Fowler’s stages may be common or even predominant among American Christians, but not even everyone in that group fits this model.  My wife is an example of one such exception.  As far as I can tell, she moved smoothly from Stage 3 right past Stage 4 and into Stage 5.  In spite of apparently not going through a deconstructive stage, she developed the tentativity and ambiguity-tolerance in religious matters which is characteristic of Stage 5.  For as long as I have known her (her early 20s), she has had what Fowler described as “a capacity to see and be in one’s or one’s group’s most powerful meanings, while simultaneously recognizing that they are relative, partial and inevitably distorting apprehensions of transcendent reality.”

Third, as UU minister Carl Gregg points out in his review of Fowler’s book, spiritual development is less like a conveyer belt and more like spiral, meaning that a person can experience aspects of two stages at once.  This was certainly true in my case.  I more often felt like I was straddling two of Fowler’s stages than standing firmly in any one of them.  Even now, while I identify myself as being in Fowler’s Stage 5, I have a foot dragging along in Stage 4 behind me.

Another one of the problems with Fowler’s linear approach is the temptation it creates to view ourselves as farther along the path than we are and to view other as farther back than they are.  When I was given Fowler’s book, I would have said that I was transitioning from Stage 4 to Stage 5.  Looking back, 10 years later, I would now say that I had (at least)  a foot in Stage 3, was straddling Stage 4, and had a toe in Stage 5.  And then there is the problem of how one views others.  For instance, when I was in the deconstructive Stage 4, it was practically impossible for me to tell the difference between others who were in Stage 3 and Stage 5.  They all looked the same to me, because most of them participated in religious community and spoke the language of religious symbols.  My default was to “condemn” them all to Stage 3, because I really had no experience of Stage 5 to make sense of other kinds of religious participation.  In my case, that meant that I thought I had moved “beyond” my wife when I left the Mormon church, only to find out years later that I was actually “catching up” to her.

Why I Still Like Fowler’s Stages

I know there will be some who object to the whole idea of stages of spiritual development because it inevitably leads to comparisons of individuals which can be unflattering and breeds a kind of spiritual elitism.  Nobody would want to hear that they are in Stage 3 at mid-life.  And those in Stage 4 may resent the suggestion that their hard-fought-for religious independence is not the end of the road.  Nevertheless, it does seem to me that there is a general pattern in American spiritual development, which involves a mythologizing phase, a de-mythologizing phase, and a reconstructive phase.  Perhaps there would be less stigma attached to the earlier phases if we did not tie them to specific age groups.  In any case, Fowler’s stages fit my own personal history pretty well.

And in spite of the limitations discussed above, I have still found Fowler’s stages to be personally helpful to understanding my own life.  When I left the Mormon faith, transitioning from the adolescent Stage 3 stage to the young adult Stage 4, I was hurt and angry.  I felt that I had been lied to.  I wanted nothing to do with organized religion at all.  As I (very) gradually transitioned from Stage 4 to Stage 5, I realized that much of my anger at my religion of origin was really anger that I felt toward myself which I had projected outward.  I realized that I was not so much angry that I had been lied to, as I was angry at myself for being deceived (or for lying to myself).  Healing from that wound was less about forgiving others, as it was about forgiving myself.  And a critical part of forgiving myself was realizing that the adolescent stage of spirituality was normal and healthy.  We cannot be born into the world with an adult spirituality, any more than we can be born into the world with an adult body or adult cognitive faculties.  (That’s not to say that there are not young individuals who are exceptional.)  Reading Fowler’s Stages of Faith was invaluable in realizing the truth that spirituality is developed over time and forgiving myself essentially for being human.  Eventually, it helped me feel more empathy for those for whom the Mormon church was still fulfilling a spiritual function.

Fowler’s book also helped me from getting stuck in the spirituality of young adulthood.  It would have been easy to get stuck in the negativity of Fowler’s Stage 4.  Realizing that there was something beyond the deconstructive stage of faith helped me to be open to a re-constructive kind of spirituality that I eventually found in Neo-Paganism.  It is something I still am striving toward.  Of course, I don’t mean to suggest here that Mormonism is necessarily associated with Stage 3 or that Neo-Paganism is necessarily associated with Stage 5.  (That’s a question for another day.)  A person going from Neo-Paganism to Mormonism could till be moving from Stage 3 to Stage 5.  It’s just the direction it occurred for me.  And in the process, Fowler’s schema for spiritual development helped me make peace with my past and also gave me an inkling of what I wanted to move toward.

More information on Fowler’s stages can be found here and here.

Notes:

* I use the word “faith” here, not in the sense of belief, but in the sense of one’s general relation to religious questions.

For discussion: Has your own religious development followed a similar pattern?  Has it followed another pattern?  Do you think it is helpful to think of spiritual development in terms of stages?  Why or why not?

The Author

John Halstead

John Halstead is a former Mormon, now eclectic Neopagan with an interest in ritual as an art form, ecopsychology, theopoetics, Jungian theory, and the idea of death as an act of creation (palingenesis).  He blogs at The Allergic Pagan at Patheos Pagan and Dreaming the Myth Forward at PaganSquare. John currently serves at the managing editor at HP.

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Next Sunday

Bart Everson

Next Sunday: A Pedagogy of Gaia: by Bart Everson: “Always Beginning Again”.